~an essay on my path~

* land, sea & sky*

*sometimes i find myself analysing my path*

and this is something i touched on in an earlier post

i cannot remember a time when i was not a pagan, or at least had those early formed ideas of believing something different from what was told to me at school, from what others believed.

over the years my path has changed and developed in subtle ways, i imagine many people have this change, and my thoughts have developed and i have read more, delved deeper.

i wonder...what should i call myself?

but

why do i need to give myself a name i wonder?

a label?

a sense of belonging?

but i am solitary and always have been so why?

*i think this comes in part form a forum i belong to where i have found how very different my path is to others*

i have no concept of the worship of 'the goddess',

that the goddesses and gods are part of a monotheistic entity

i do not follow the eight-fold wheel of the year~i focus on the four main festivals while being aware that the ancestors, for whatever reason, found significance in the solstice and equinox

i do not cast circles or use tools in ceremonial magic with the four elements

*following a pagan path is a funny old thing*

but from my involvement in the stonewylde forum its good to see the differing paths joining in harmony with respect

~old church at imbolc~

i am expecting some of my newer readers to wonder why on earth a pagan would choose to go to an old christian church at imbolc?

well, the church, high on a hill, is built within a big round earth work, and the yew has been dated to over 1,000 years old and i, and others believe, as is usual with many old churches, that the original site was either a small settlement or a sacred place for the ancestors of this area.

i have always been drawn to this place and since moving back here after ten years of roaming dorset i find the pull to go up there even stronger than before.

but i only ever go there when i am called and yesterday it was strong despite the freezing weather.

it is really peaceful there, and to me it has nothing to do with it being a graveyard and a sanctified area~that has no meaning for me in a religious sense.

the peace is deeper, taking me out of this time, further back, to a time before christianity claimed it as its own