My boyfriend (Edgar) is in Vallarta with his friends

 & it's alright I guess, but I don't know, it could be a 

possibility that he could cheat on me there, because

 I'm so used to it with my ex boyfriends & I feel he's 

going to do the same but let's not think about it & that's

 all. Meanwhile I'm smoking like crazy & feeling like 

shit, it happens right? When everything comes down 

so suddenly that you don't know what to do, but as always 

I'm going to be okay.