~fruition~

some of the plans and ideas i had at samhuinn are slowly coming into being~maybe not as soild concrete things but as gently evolving ideas.

and ideas that are mentally evolving and not remaining stagnant have to be a good thing dont you think?

since september when i met a lovely lady and her little dog who had been living in thier camper in ireland for some months, i have been thinking of geting back into my daily practice.
she is a yoga teacher and she told me how good yoga was for people with fibromyalgia~not only for helping keep muscles mobile but also the meditation and focus was important for mental health too.

i started my yoga practice (hatha) over ten years ago but since becoming ill stopped, although it has been in the back of my mind i should have continued with it.

so i have started...gently...and already i am feeling better mentally.
of course i am waiting to see how it will be with my m.e/fibro.
i could use the excuse that 'oh it will make me tired, it will hurt' etc etc but to be honest i would rather have a day or two where i can do it, however small and gentle, and have a day or two where things are not so good than do nothing.

i am so tired of doing nothing because to be honest doing nothing hurts just as much as doing.

it was mels post that made me start thinking~i have started to get fed up thinking in 'whens'

when i am better i will...

m.e and fibro are both long term chronic conditions, i dont know when i will be better and i suddenly realised i cannot waste time in waiting for when.

i realised i can no longer live with my physical and spiritual self wending their different paths...